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“Sometimes the dreams that come true are the dreams you never even knew you had.” ~ Alice Sebold  (The Lovely Bones)

Mac MacAllister, of 'Golden Dancer' by Tara Lain, is an excellent reporter with a good career, but, in order to really make it big, Mac thinks he needs one really high-profile story, finally validating him as a great reporter. He's convinced he is on to that story; it involves Daniel Terrebone, a well-respected billionaire, and philanthropist who Daniel is convinced stole a priceless statue called the Golden Dancer. Few people in the world have the financial and technical skill to accomplish this feat. It is common knowledge that Terrebone has attempted to purchase it several times before it went missing. Even so, it makes no sense that Terrebone is so intent on having this piece and even less sense that he would steal it, but Mac is convinced that he's the thief and Mac is determined to discover why.

When a fellow reporter becomes ill, Mac covers an interview with Trelain Medveyev, an internationally famous ballet dancer. From the first moment Mac sees Trelain, he is entranced and the feeling is mutual. Mac is confused by the strong reaction and tells Trelain that he's straight. They end up in Trelain's hotel room where he proceeds to demonstrate why he doesn't believe that Mac is straight. Mac's mind is totally blown by Trelain's seduction. When Mac learns that Daniel Terrebone, the man Mac considers his nemesis, has invited Trelain to his mansion for a minivacation, Mac rushes to his aid. Mac knows what a player Terrebone is and doesn't want Trelain to end up as one of his discarded toys.

Daniel knows about Mac's tryst with Trelain so when Mac rushes in to save Trelain, instead of being angry, he is amused and Trelain is actually flattered. Mac stays for a while using the excuse of needing more information from Trelain for his interview. Daniel is very observant and sees that the attraction between Trelain and Mac is more than a casual dalliance. Instead of attempting to push Mac out of the picture, he decides to seduce him in order to keep him there for Trelain, as well as himself. Mac stays, but after having sex with both men, Mac has to accept that he is, indeed, gay.

Mac is a changed man who is quickly embracing his newly discovered gayness; but he's at a loss as to what to do about his investigation, especially since he's seen a different side of Daniel. He still believes Daniel stole the statue and wants to do the story, but is emotionally invested to the point that he knows if he exposes Daniel, he will go to jail and doing so would inevitably cause him to lose Trelain as well. Mac is torn between his desire to write his article and gain notoriety and maintaining his newfound happiness with Daniel and Trelain.

As usual for Tara's stories, this one has a lot more going on than I can fit in a review, but the complex background stories will stretch your emotions to the limit. Mac, Daniel, and Trelain are all wonderfully fleshed out characters with flaws as well as strengths. They are all damaged in their own ways, but together, they can move a mountain. I'm not a real fan of ménages, but Tara has opened my mind and shown me that it's, theoretically at least, possible. This is not a light, happy ever after fairy tale like many of Tara's stories. It's bold, gritty, and has in-your-face realism. Even though this is my second reading of this book, it is so full of mystery and intrigue that I couldn't put it down until I finished. If you like reading stories full of handsome men, kidnapping, action, adventure, love, steamy sex, and a happy ending, then you may enjoy this book. Thanks, Tara, for the experience of knowing Mac, Daniel, and Trelain.

“Do you remember when we were just kids and cardboard boxes took us miles from what we would miss? School yard conversations taken to heart and laughter took the place of everything…Amazing how life turns out the way that it does. We end up hurting the worst, the only ones we really love...Lying here beside me, palms and eyes open wide. I want to be your last first kiss for all time.” ~ Anberlin (Inevitable)

From the first time Evan King of 'Five Times My Best Friend Kissed Me' by Anna Martin met Scott Sparrow, he knew that no one would ever take Scott' place in his heart. Many things happen to Evan and Scott over the years, but one thing that always remains constant is Evan's love for Scott.

As children, Evan and Scott are inseparable. The boys are totally dedicated to each other. They realize that no one else makes them feel as happy and content as one does for the other. It's a pure, innocent love; at the time it is perfectly normal to feel this way. As they get older, Evan acknowledges that he is gay; he also knows that his feelings for Scott are more romantic than those of the best-friends-forever kind. Since Scott doesn't appear to feel that way, Evan keeps his feelings and his sexuality deep in the closet. When Scott kisses him, Evan is confused because he has always considered Scott to be straight, but this encourages him to think that, just maybe, Scott has romantic feelings for him too. Unfortunately, the 'moment' passes as quickly as it happens. When Scott does an about-face and Evan sees him with a girl in his lap, Evan is hurt and confused. Instead of pursuing it any further, Evan chooses not to talk about it and pretend it didn't happen.

After high school Scott goes to school in Chicago and Scott stays close by. They begin to loose touch with each other, yet Evan still loves Scott with all his heart. Even though Evan comes out in college, moving on is difficult for him; no one can compare to Scott. Evan sees Scott a few more times during the years, but his encounters with Scott always end with Evan being hurt and Scott not understanding his reaction and why he is upset. They just can't seem to get on the same page. In Scott's case, he can't even get on the same page with himself. He is torn between loving Evan and being able to admit that he's either gay or bisexual. He hurts Evan when he tells him that it is okay for Evan to be gay because he's artistic and acts “that way”, but that it would ruin him to admit it, damaging his macho image. Evan can't take anymore and walks away, meaning for it to be forever. Regardless of how he feels, it's obvious that Scott is not at the point where he can be honest with himself and he may never be.

This story uses an unusual format that jumps around in time. Some sections relate to certain subjects, i.e., the whole issue between Evan and Scott, showing how close and sweet their love was as when they were children, how inevitable it seemed to be that they would end up together. Another set of stories was about how difficult it became for them when the love became more adult and serious, how Evan accepted how he felt but Scott couldn't, therefore dooming them both to years of misery. It was predictable that Evan and Scott would eventually get together, but by the time they did, there had been so much sadness, it was difficult for me to accept. Mostly, the story took place in Virginia where I've lived most of my life; it was nice to hear places mentioned that I know and love—Fredericksburg, Richmond, and, my home town, Virginia Beach. However, one of the things that distracted me was when Evan and Scott were home for Christmas, Evan and Scott wished each other a “Happy Christmas” instead of a “Merry Christmas” - not a greeting that would be used in Virginia. I loved Evan's close relationship with his mother and Scott's progressive family's attitudes as well as their acceptance of Evan and Scott's relationship. If you like friends-to-lovers stories with close families, lots of angst, and believe in love's ability to conquer all, you may appreciate this story. Thank you, Anna, for giving Evan and Scott their hard-won happy ending.

“In dreams I walk with you...talk to you...you're mine all the time. We're together in dreams...But just before the dawn, I awake and find you gone. .It's too bad it only...happens in my dreams...” ~ Roy Orbison (In Dreams)

Liam Grady and Cameron Danu have been dreaming about each other for years and know more about each other than anyone else. It has interfered with their waking hours because no man can ever imagine another man who could measure up to their lover who only meets him when he is asleep. What they are not aware of is that the person they are in love with in their dreams is not just a fantasy, but a real flesh and blood person.

Liam and Cameron have never met in “real life” because Cameron lives in another city. When he gets a new job and moves to Asheville, NC, where Liam lives, that's when they first get glimpses of each other from across a crowded room in a club. Both are so freaked out, they don't connect at the time. Liam accepts the possibility of his dream lover being a real person before Cameron does. After talking with his aunt, Dianne and her Wiccan priest, Nosha, Liam learns he's a dream walker, a person able to “walk” into other people's dreams and interact with them. With this knowledge, Liam is anxious to see if Cameron is, indeed, the man he's loved for years. He finds Cameron at work, intending to get to know more about him. Unfortunately, Cameron's mind can't so easily accept that the man he's always thought of as just a fantasy is now standing right in front of him. Liam interprets Cameron's reticence as rejection and goes into a tail spin. He starts drinking to stop from dreaming about Cameron, thinking somehow he's been forcing himself upon the other man and hurting him by doing so.  

After a month of drinking, Liam's aunt comes to Cameron, begging him to try to convince Liam that he doesn't hate him and, if he doesn't want to be Liam's real life lover, to at least be his friend so he will stop drinking. Cameron is upset when he finds out his hesitation to be with him is the reason for Liam's drastic behavior and he goes to Liam and gets him back on the right track. Convinced they are going to be okay, they decide to start dating and are surprised that just like in their dreams it seems comfortable, even natural to be together. Their honeymoon doesn’t last very long before Liam and eventually Cameron are the victims of psychic attacks that leave them physically wounded.

The premise of this story, i.e., lovers meeting first in the dream world then getting together in the real world, is an interesting twist. Liam and Cameron are interesting characters with distinct personalities and strikingly different tastes, Liam, although a dream walker, is a conservative dresser and owns a bookstore; while Cameron is anything but conservative having multiple tattoos and piercings; but in their hearts, they are soul mates. If you like learning about Wiccan customs, dream walking, and dreams becoming real, you may enjoy this story. Thanks, Tempeste, for making Liam and Cam's dreams come true.

“Nuair a choinnich iad bilean ann an meadhan, le blas eadar an chocolateorra, Leòdhas a 'faireachdainn an pòg dha òrdagan.”

“When their lips met in the middle, with the taste of the chocolate between them, Lewis felt the kiss to his toes.” ~ RJ Scott in 'Kissing Alex'

Not only is Alex, of 'Kissing Alex' by RJ Scott, the type of client Lewis disdains, but the  assignment to be Alex's bodyguard is right in the middle of the only month of the year when Lewis is able to go home and relax. However, the fee is phenomenal, an amount even Lewis can't turn down. He decides to accept the job, taking Alex home with him so Lewis can enjoy being with his family and guard him as well.

Alex is terrified and angry about being yanked out of his world and taken 'God only knows where' for protection he thinks he doesn't need. Even when they try to impress upon him the danger he's in, Alex scoffs at the idea that anyone would want to hurt him just to get to a man he only slept with once. When Alex is told that this man's family are ruthless gangsters and he is the main person to testify against them at their trial, Alex finally sees the danger. Even though he understands, he feels safe with Lewis, confident no one can get to him. When Alex realizes that his bodyguard not only owns Stoirmeil Island, but he is also Laird of Stoirmeil, he's bewildered. Alex falls in love with the island with it's beautiful with breathtaking views, but soon discovers why it is called storimeil (stormy). Alex finds a sense of peace he has not felt for a long time. Alex also loves the people, their rustic ways and Gaelic language. Alex especially loves his tall, handsome, stoic bodyguard. Alex tries hard to impress Lewis, demonstrating his interest and hoping to garner his attention, but Lewis doesn't budge. Alex begins to wonder if he's either not gay or just not interested.

Lewis's first impression of Alex is quickly shattered. The pretty, entitled boyband member he was expecting is so much more. Alex is intelligent, well-read, and talented. He writes many of the band's songs, keeps in shape by practicing ballet and has the most kissable-looking lips on the planet. Lewis senses Alex is interested, but he is tired of always having to be in charge. Lewis is delighted when Alex makes the first move, but also overwhelmed. Their first kiss, although not wildly passionate, is very meaningful, causing Lewis to reevaluate his life. Lewis feels certain that Alex is secure on his island and that they would see danger long before it comes, so he relaxes and enjoys being home and having Alex there as well, trying not to think too far in the future. Unfortunately, the island isn't as secure as he thinks.

I really enjoyed this turbulent but romantic story, made even more appealing by the sprinklings of Gaelic throughout. This foreign yet romantic language touched my heart, allowing me to feel deeply for the island and its people. I loved the family dynamics and their connections to the island. Lewis is a wonderful character, strong yet complex. I appreciated that even though Lewis has a title, he was modest and didn't like using it. His reluctance to always be in control was admirable. Given his size, most people would assume that he was always the aggressor. The unexpected behavior gave him more depth. By the same token, Alex was delightfully different than the usual stereotype of a boyband member. Alex's openness and understanding concerning Lewis and the other members of his family touched me. If you like an unpredictable romance with adventure and intrigue, along with two very handsome, sexy men, you may enjoy this book. Thanks, RJ, for another delightful addition to the 'Bodyguards Inc.' series. I can hardly wait to see what happens next in Roman's story.

“No good deed goes unpunished.” ~ Oscar Wilde

Philip Potter, of 'No Good Deed' by Michael Rupured, takes under his wing a young homeless boy named James, who was thrown away by his father because he is gay. Caring for James is a labor of love; Philip only has the best of intentions toward James. James was turning tricks when Philip picks him up but, even though James begs for more, they do not share a bed until James turns eighteen. When James needs money for ballet school, he decides to ask his father for it, knowing Philip doesn’t have it. He hopes that maybe, just this once, his father won’t let him down. James is wrong. Knowing Philip won’t be home yet, he returns to their apartment. Feeling totally worthless, nothing but a burden, James shoots himself, leaving a note for Philip that simply says: “Forget Me”.

As Philip tries to deal with the aftermath of losing James, he comes to realize some bitter facts about their relationship. The first one is that the beautiful, fragile man he loved so much was, in reality, more like a little brother than a lover. James looked up to Philip, even loved him, but James was broken - irreparably so. Ending it all would also end the disappointment James had for himself and, in his mind, it would keep him from disappointing anyone ever again. As more of the truth about their relationship comes to light, Philip learns that the closeness, trust, and honesty he felt he had with James was just an illusion. Philip begins to wonder if he really knew James at all. Philip was always there to encourage, support, defend, love, and protect James. Perhaps his only fault was doing too much for him instead of encouraging him to be more self-sufficient. Even though things turned out dreadfully wrong, Philip takes comfort in his belief that his compassion toward James was unconditional.

As if James's death wasn't enough to deal with, Philip's kindheartedness gets him in trouble again. The Christmas gifts he bought for some young men in a homeless shelter link him to a murder investigation and Philip was the last person to see the latest victim. His need for legal council leads him to James's uncle, George, who is happy to help him. After an intense questioning, James is not arrested, but told to stay in town. Meanwhile, the investigation is ongoing. There are a few likely suspects, other than Philip, who are quickly ruled out. In the meanwhile, the murders continue.

This book is a real roller coaster ride of emotions from happiness to horror. From James's death, police investigation, and the side stories involving the murder suspects, the story kept me swinging from one feeling to another. Although there are lots of sexual references, there are no on-page sex scenes. Everything is either alluded to or explained by switching narrators depending upon which characters were involved. I was almost certain I knew who the murderer was, but some deliberately misleading 'clues' made me doubt it, but not for too long. This story takes place in 1969, a year after I graduated from high school. Many of the references to cars, products, clothing, and attitudes brought back memories both good and bad. Injustice ran rampant and, even after all the progress that has been made, there is still a long way to go. If you enjoy murder mysteries, gay characters, the 1960s, and second chances, you may like this book. Thanks, Michael, for a suspenseful read.

“A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes in the promise of love, no matter how long the time and how far the distance.” ~ Anonymous

After Rone, of 'Sometimes Love Lasts' by Jake Wells, was seen kissing his best friend, Carson, whom he secretly loved, his bully of a father beat him badly and left him where he fell. Rone was convinced that his brash action had pushed Carson away forever and that his abusive father would surely kill him if he stayed. Rone makes a life-changing decision, runs away, and does whatever he can to hide from his father. The most difficult part of going is leaving his five-year-old brother, Eli, behind.

It isn't too long before Rone begins to regret not putting more thought into his running away. He's soon faced with the reality of not having a high school education making it almost impossible to get a job. Rone misses Eli and Carson desperately, but tries to tamp down the feelings by reminding himself of why he couldn't stay. Fortunately, Rone makes a rather unlikely but nonetheless loyal friend, Madge, the woman who runs the hotel Rone wanders into looking for a room to rent. She recognizes that Rone isn't your typical runaway and takes him under her wing, ultimately helping him work toward his goal of being a pediatric surgeon.

Rone, who was an A student before he ran away, finishes high school, college, and works hard through his medical courses and training. Even with all the good things that happen, it only takes one 'failure' to throw him back to before he ran away, hearing his voice telling him he's a failure and he will never amount to anything. Rone has a few failed romances. One in particular is with Mateo who lies to Rone and cheats on him. This breaks his heart, causing Rone to be more lonely than ever. Rone can't help but wonder about Carson, how he is, and what he's doing now. He finds it difficult to believe how much he still loves and misses him. Rone wonders if he will ever find someone he loves more than Carson.

This is an endearing story about a young man who runs away from a life of disappointment and pain and, fortunately, is able to overcome adversity and still able to make his dreams come true. If you enjoy reading stories about new beginnings, love that lasts, and happy endings, then you may enjoy this book. Thanks, Jake, for allowing me to follow Rone's journey to happiness.

“Too often, we carry around things from our past that hurt us, holding onto anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die. Don't let negative experiences from the past rob your present of a happy future.” ~ Rashida Rowe

After Max Ashford's, of 'Power Play' by Avon Gale, injury, he lost almost everything: his career, his endorsements, his home, and his fiancée. Since Max is a glass-half-full kind of guy, it doesn’t keep him down for long. As with many sports, players who can no longer play often coach; with great anticipation, he's looking forward to imparting his knowledge and experience to other players. What Max is not expecting is to be made a spectacle of by his new general manager, in a commercial for the team capitalizing on his misfortunate accident merely for publicity's sake.

When Max learns that his head coach, the man he will be working with, is Misha Samarin, the player who was involved in his accident, Max's self-confidence plummets. Max even wonders if he would have been hired at all if not for Misha getting the head coach position. Not wanting to give Belsey, the GM, the satisfaction of seeing their shock, both men remain calm and collected, at least on the inside. Max holds no grudge toward Misha; he knows what happened was an accident but Misha doesn't know that. When he realizes that Max has truly gotten over what happened he is stunned. Misha has carried around a lot of guilt for years and it still eats away at him. Max assures Misha that he doesn't hold anything against Misha and makes it clear that he sees no reason why they can't work together effectively and, hopefully, improve their team's standing. Considering they are dead last, it won't be much of a stretch. Besides skills, Max and Misha know that attitude can make or break a team. The coaches get to work on improving the team's morale in spite of the bullying and opposition they receive from Belsey. Instead of relying on foolish commercials or gimmicks such as free food, Max and Misha work with the team to improve their skills and become a solid unit, rather than individual hockey players working on their own.

From the start, the chemistry between Max and Misha is undeniable. Yet, it's a combination of mutual respect as well as a physical attraction. Because Max tells Misha he's only recently discovered that he's bisexual, Misha is hesitant to rush a physical relationship, but when they do finally get to that point, there's little doubt that they are meant to be together. Misha is Max's yin/dark as Max is Misha's yang/light. Although their personalities seem opposed, put together they bring about harmony and balance. Because of Misha's past, even besides his history with Max, Misha is stoic, he believes in suffering, he punishes himself about things he can't change. Max is all about expressing himself; even in bed. It's impossible to be around Max and stay emotionless for long; if nothing else, he will talk to you ad nauseam until you are “infected” with his point of view. Max is like sunshine; his optimistic, yet practical philosophy of life is contagious.

The reference to the Bruins brought back fond memories. Many years ago, I lived outside of Boston, Massachusetts, and attended a Bruins game. Not knowing what was going on most of the time didn't keep me from getting caught up in the excitement and action.  Avon has done a great job explaining “Ice Hockey 101” without being overly detailed or didactic, which I greatly appreciated. I also loved the irony involved in the way Max and Misha were brought back together. The universe can definitely be sneaky like that. Both were such strong, admirable characters, not to mention sexy and devastatingly handsome.

I'd recommend this story not only to hockey fans, but even to those who don't think they would enjoy a book about ice hockey. If you let that stop you, I believe you will miss out on a great reading experience; not to mention the great characters, hot sex, and strong messages about loving yourself first, not letting your past keep you down, and, of course, a happy ending. Thanks, Avon, for the great story and especially for introducing me to Max and Misha, who are now on my favorite couples list.

“One of the most striking differences between a cat and a lie is that a cat has only nine lives.” ~ Mark Twain

The last thing Tom Halloran ever expected to be is a police officer, but when the universe offered him a second chance, he took it. It's been eight years since he joined the force and he has definitely turned over a new leaf. Tom is living the life he may have had if he had not been born into a family involved in crime. The people on his beat like him because he's friendly and helpful, unlike most coppers in the city. Tom is also honest, another rare commodity in a place where corruption runs rampant. For the most part, Tom is happy, that is, until a similar crime occurs to the one that changed his life. In the past, Tom may have turned a blind eye to the situation and ignored the similarities, but he's changed a lot from the man he used to be and is finding it nearly impossible to do so now. It is both threatening and serendipitous when his chief assigns him to investigate in collaboration with the Witch Police, another murder that may be connected. Tom can hardly believe it when he stands in Witch Police headquarters. The city police and Witch police are not known for their cooperation and are often at odds with each other so it's a surprise not only to him, but to Cicero, the unbonded familiar, a cat shifter, Tom is paired with.

Cicero is appalled when he meets Tom. Not only is Tom completely the opposite appearance and personality-of someone Cicero would normally be attracted to, Cicero immediately recognizes him as his witch! Combine that with the usual distain witch police have for the regular police officers and it's a perfect firestorm. At first, Cicero refuses to work with Tom, but when he finds that the only way he can continue his investigation into his friend's death is to work with him, he relents and reluctantly agrees. As much as Cicero fights it, he has to eventually realize that Tom, although he's a big burly man, is not like other coppers he's known. He's constantly surprising Cicero with his easygoing, patient understanding of things instead of the bluster, anger, and brutality he's used to seeing.

Cicero intrigues Tom as well, not just because of his beautiful eyes, hair, and grace, but also with his cat-like mannerisms, i.e., lapping up the cream in his coffee or curling in a ball to sleep, but Tom figures Cicero is too sophisticated for him. Tom and Cicero go undercover, working at a resort called The Spitting Rooster, Cicero as an exotic dancer and Tom as a bartender, in hopes of obtaining more information about the two crimes they are working on. Their new identities are in place but Tom and Cicero are still careful to play them well; but it's not easy. There are several unforeseen complications that pop up, threatening to blow their cover. Cicero has to fight off the advances of customers; for Tom the deeper they get into the investigation, the more Tom exposes his secret by using skills and knowledge he obtained in his past. Tom knows that suspicion about his expertise is building and, if keeps helping, it's only a matter of time until his lies are discovered. Tom hates lying to Cicero and doesn't want to lose him, but he reaches the point where he is in a no-win situation. If Tom openly uses the skills he possesses to help prevent more crime, he will  also have to reveal how and where he acquired them and Tom knows that his conscience won't let him just walk away from his responsibilities.

Jordan has created an awesome alternative world with some real history thrown in along with it for good measure. It's just close enough to what could have happened for me to believe it did. The characters are imaginative, unique, and exotic. There's a Witch police force as well as a regular one. The rivalry between the two police forces plays a big part by causing another source of resistance keeping Tom and Cicero apart. The sexual tension sizzles while they sort out their misconceptions about one another and it explodes into some seriously steamy sex scenes that are erotic and evocative.

I enjoyed seeing Dominick and Rook from Jordan's short story, 'The Thirteenth Hex' which is a prequel. It's not essential that you read it first because Jordan has put enough background into this story to make it stand on its own, but I highly recommend that you do so to get more enjoyment out of it. If you enjoy paranormal fantasy with witches, familiars who are shifters, hexes, history, and magic, you may love this novel. Thank you, Jordan, for writing a story containing frightening elements that I normally shy away from and making me love it.

“Three things cannot long stay hidden: the sun, the moon and the truth.” – Buddha

As Heath Blackwood, of ‘Duke in Hiding' by MJ O'Shea, soon realizes, hiding from danger necessitates lying about why you are in a certain place, who you are, what you do, and where you are from. Heath doesn't see any harm in telling a few lies to preserve his safety and, honestly, doesn't see how it would matter, that is, until he becomes intimately involved with Theo Brody. As they become closer, Heath feels guilty about lying to Theo, or at the least, not telling him the whole truth about who he is because he is afraid that his dishonesty will cause Theo not to trust him. So Heath puts off the confession until he gets caught in his own lies.

At first, Theo dislikes the snarky, stuck-up Englishman who seems condescending at best. Although Theo is a down-to-earth, decent man, he won't tolerate what he considers disrespect and calls Heath out on his behavior. Heath admits his homesickness and lack of desire to be on Wickstaff Island as an excuse for his disgruntled behavior, and Theo admits that they have started off on the wrong foot and agrees to try again. They strike up a friendship that soon begins to be more. Theo decides that he loves Heath and is not willing to miss out on an opportunity to be intimate with him, even though it means he will miss him intensely when he has to go back to England.

Heath loves Theo and is happier than he's ever been when he's with him. He's convinced he has met the man of his dreams and has no intention of letting him go. He's already calculating, deciding what to do about their relationship when he has to return to England, not seeing the distance as a huge obstacle. Heath's best scenario involves convincing Theo to come live with him. Heath hates that he's lied to Theo and intends to tell him who he really is, but keeps putting it off. Heath has finally gathered up the courage to tell him when fate intervenes. The authorities in England discover and arrest the culprit who tried to kill him and he must return to England to face his family and the controversy that will surely be surrounding the charges and trial.

I thoroughly enjoyed this delightful fairy-tale style of story. Heath and Theo are both well-developed, intriguing characters. So is Gilly, Theo's best friend. The secondary characters are a delight as well and exemplify citizens with a small-town mentality, most of whom know everyone’s business and although nosy, mean well. If you enjoy romance, small towns, handsome men, nobility, and love, you may like this story. Thanks, M.J., for a romantic, happily-ever-after tale.

 “So keep your mind wide open and allow for stereotypes to be defied. Express yourself in whatever way you wish and allow others to do the same. Don’t make anyone afraid to stand up and stand out for who they are and who they want to be.” ~ Rachel Thompson

After being bullied unmercifully at his former school, Anton of 'Spy Stuff' by Mathew J. Mettzer, is starting a different one in hopes of having a new beginning. When his teacher asks him to introduce himself, Anton bristles; since he wants to remain as anonymous as possible, Anton tells her he'd rather not. This reply starts a small riot with the kids in the class, complete with throwing books, screaming, and swearing at each other, etc. Anton is alarmed, wondering if he's gone from the frying pan into the fire. Fortunately, Emma, one of his classmates, takes Anton under her wing and acts as a guide, explaining that they guys always act like that and they are actually friends.

Unlike most of us, Anton has to worry about what toilet to go in, changing in gym class, and wearing a skimpy vest (tank top) instead of a T-shirt because he doesn't want anyone to see his binder and discover he's transgender. Anton is afraid that if they did, he would be treated differently than if they consider him just “one of the guys”. Fortunately, the kids in this school seem friendly and open, particularly Emma and Jude.

Anton has never had anyone affect him the way Jude does and he's not quite sure how to act or feel. Jude's easy-going manner and brilliant smile make his heart beat nearly out of his chest and Anton dares to dream. Apparently, Jude feels the same way; even though he's only been with girls, Jude decides to ask Anton out anyway. Jude takes some flack about dating Anton, but he blows it off saying he doesn't care if they think he's gay or bi, because it's Anton he's attracted to, not his gender.

'Hearing' Anton's perspective gave me a clearer understanding of what a transgender person experiences every day, things that most people don't see as a problem. Fortunately, this story has a more positive slant than usually occurs in real life. It was wonderful to think about how things could be if only more people would just open their minds and not be so quick to judge. I especially loved Jude who was understanding and gracious with Anton. Jude encouraged Anton to be who he truly is rather than hiding it.

I don't have the space to put down all my thoughts and feelings about the transgender issue, but Matthew covers it in his special style of seriousness and humor, bringing up important points; yet he keeps it from being too heavy or didactic. There aren't many books about transgender teens that discuss the topic of being transgender, especially as well as Matthew does. This is one of the reasons I am highly recommending it to people of that age group. It's just as important that families, teachers, teens, and other adults, particularly those who associate with transgender kids, read this book as well. Support and sensitivity is especially important, because using the wrong pronoun, or implying the wrong gender, hurts more than anyone who is not sensitive to the subject can imagine. Thanks, Matthew, for the witty, informative, sensitive, and straightforward look at what it's like to be transgender.

“You have to be careful what you wish for. What you think you want, may be more than you can handle.” ~ unknown

The rock band Desolation Angel, from 'Desolation Angel' by Layla Dorine, is much more than a group of men who write and play music together. Paul, Mark, and Tommy are in a committed relationship; Sionn, a lifelong friend, and Dare, Tommy's younger brother, also live in the same house and regard each other as family. They are extremely close and what affects one affects them all, which in many ways is a positive thing, and in others causes problems. Through no fault of his own, Dare's behavior has an enormous impact on the family. Although he's a beautiful, talented, charismatic performer, who writes all the fantastic music for the band, it comes at a high price. Dare experiences the notes and lyrics of his songs in daydreams, during which, he is literally oblivious to everybody and everything around him. Needless to say, this causes his family a great deal of concern for his safety.

Dare hates the fact that he's not “normal”. He feels like he's a burden to everyone involved and it bothers him to no end. The thing is, without drugging him completely out and making him a zombie, the dreams won't stop. On one hand they are a gift and on the other a curse. The thing is, Dare loves his music and would never want to give it up. Without “dreaming” he's afraid he will lose the ability to write and play. It's a hard choice, but Dare is desperate. He's tired of being so dependent upon others. Even though they tell him constantly that he isn't, Dare is afraid they hate him for it. After yet another incident where Dare burns his arm badly when he spaces out while cooking, Sionn can't take it anymore and insists that Dare get help. Part of his frustration is that Sionn is in love with Dare, but he's so fragile, Sionn doesn't want to make a move and lose his friendship. Therefore Sionn tries to hide his feelings with little success. Dare seems to be the only one who doesn't notice it. That's mostly because Dare thinks Sionn hates him for being the way Dare is.  Dare begins to see a psychiatrist who refuses to give him drugs and insists that he journal his experiences to look for patterns and triggers. In some ways, it's harder, but Dare makes a valiant attempt, although he is still convinced that he's a freak and will never be normal. At which point his therapist reminds him that normal is relative. Dare has to learn to define who he is, aside from the rest of his family and find his own normal.

In the meanwhile, the band gets an opportunity to record their music, but it ends up they only want Dare. Out of loyalty and convinced that he could never play without his band, Dare calls the promoter and tells him exactly that—all of them or none. Afraid to lose them altogether, the record producers concede and take them all. The whole process is exciting, stressful, chaotic, and enlightening and they finish both relieved and hopeful for a better future. But when they go out to celebrate, tragedy strikes, threatening to tear the band apart, yet presenting an opportunity to become closer as well.

Each member of the band had his own story with elements of chaos, mistrust, angst, along with forgiveness, redemption, and love. I normally love rocker stories, but the characters in this story didn't engage my emotions as much as I would have liked. I felt as though I was outside looking in some of the time. Perhaps if I'd had more background information, I would have been able to become more emotionally involved. I wanted to know what was going to happen next. The concept of the musical hallucinations was interesting. It seems almost magical, although I can see where it could become annoying if there were no way to control it. If you like stories about rockers, family loyalty, great music, and success against all odds, you may enjoy this book. Thanks, Layla, for introducing Desolation Angel to me and for the closure you brought to each of their lives.

“Do not allow yourself to lose sight on the way to your future, while wandering in the darkness of the past.” ~ Lucas Hunter

Avery's (Ave's) future, of 'Not Just Passing Through' by Jamie Dean, seems as bleak as the dry desert landscape that surrounds the shabby hotel he runs for his aunt. Ave's days drag by as he passes the time maintaining the business while trying to keep his loneliness at bay. Even the customers who come to stay at his establishment are dull and boring, doing nothing to lighten his mood; that is, until the stranger, Chase, on the big, black motorcycle needs a room. Before Ave can even see him clearly, he has a feeling in his gut that tells him that the fabric of his life is about to change.

From the moment Chase pulls up, Ave knows this man is unlike anyone he's ever known. Chase is a drifter with no roots; Ave has lived in the same place all of his life and has never travelled far from his home. Chase is cocky, sexy, and he knows it, and craves the attention he receives from others. He flaunts his heterosexuality by having a different woman in his bed almost every night. Ave is content to be alone, to fade into the woodwork, afraid of being touched, afraid of feelings, and especially afraid of his sexuality. Ave is content to stay in his solitary but safe closet rather than face what might happen if he steps out. But, Chase's gaydar picks up on Ave's sexuality right away and immediately lets him know it. Chase blatantly flirts with Ave, but also makes it clear that he can “look all he wants, but don't touch” because he doesn't swing that way.

Chase ends up staying at the motel much longer than is his custom and strikes up a friendship with Ave. They enjoy spending time together. Chase even gets Ave to ride on his bike with him. Ave anticipates as well as dreads having to be flush against Chase's body. He's done his best to keep his sexual desires at bay, but Chase already knows the effect he has on Ave and doesn't hesitate to tease him when he notices Ave's interest. Ave accepts the fact that he's in love with Chase and gives up fighting it, at least in his mind. He realizes that Chase won't be there forever and decides to make the most of him while he's there. Ave fantasizes about Chase all the time and even becomes accustomed to Chase's random touches and hugs. It's something he's never been able to do with anyone else. One night, an obviously drunk and sexually frustrated Chase wanders into Ave's apartment after a failed seduction of a woman he met at the bar. Ave has been drinking more than usual too. His inhibitions are down and his desire is up. Ave hates seeing Chase in such a state and offers to “help” him and Chase accepts his offer then leaves right afterward. Ave doesn't see him the next day, he's filled with remorse and guilt, convincing himself that he's destroyed their closeness forever.

I've never read a book by Jamie Dean before so I didn't know quite what to expect. I was very pleasantly surprised by how enjoyable the story was. It's well-written, engaging, and entertaining with a few life lessons thrown in for good measure. From the title and blurb, I expected it to follow familiar tropes associated with stranger meets boy in town, seduces him, and either stays or rides off with him into the sunset. To some extent, it did follow along familiar lines, but Jamie added elements that made them just different enough to make it refreshing. A drifter with no roots always has a history. I got the feeling from the start, that Chase was running away from more than a bad situation and, although he seemed tough, he wasn't cruel. Even when he was teasing Ave, he always made certain he knew it was in jest. Avery soon saw both sides of Chase but it didn't help him keep his objectivity. In fact, it caused Ave love Chase even more. If you enjoy character-driven stories with lots of emotion, angst, twists and turns, and an against-all-odds happy ending, you may enjoy this tale. Thank you, Jamie, for a memorable read.

“It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart. Without saying a word you can light up the dark. Try as I may I could never explain what I hear when you don't say a thing...The smile on your face lets me know that you need me. There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me. The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall. You say it best when you say nothing at all.”  ~ Alison Krauss (When You Say Nothing at All)

Spencer Cohen Book 3 by NR Walker begins a few months after book two ends. With Andrew in his life, Spencer is happier than he's ever been. They want to take it slow; both don't want to crash and burn because they didn't take the time to get to know each other. But they are having a difficult time doing so. What they have is so remarkable that it takes on a life of its own. Yet both of them, particularly Spencer, have reservations about the possibility of something so real and so good coming into their lives. In some ways, he is waiting for the other boot to drop and the pain of rejection to begin. When Spencer gets a call from his estranged brother, Lewis, in Australia, Andrew doesn't let his insecurities separate them; he digs himself even deeper into Spencer's heart and reaffirming his feelings. Andrew tells Spencer that he's not going anywhere, except to Australia. Andrew is determined to prove how much he loves Spencer by accompanying him in what is, almost assuredly, a major shift in his life.

As much as Spencer tries to reassure his friends, who all adore him, that he will return, they are frightened that he won't.  When they discover that Andrew is going with him, they are greatly relieved. Not only will Andrew be there to take care of Spencer and give him badly needed support, but it tremendously increases the odds that he will return. When Spencer and Andrew's plane lands in Sydney, they are exhausted, suffering from major jet lag. Spencer is both anxious about meeting his brother as much as he is anticipating it; after all, it's been ten years since he's seen him. Spencer knows that his brother has said that he wants to reconcile, but, after all these years, he's not entirely sure he believes him. What if it is just a ploy to get him back to Australia, only to be devastated all over again? Whatever happens, having Andrew by his side means he will be there to pick up the pieces and help him heal and that means the world to Spencer.

Spencer, with his gift for reading people, his wit, kindness, and special sort of charm and Andrew with his shy geekiness on the outside and his “bossiness” inside create two parts of a whole that most of us can only dream of. The most amazing thing about them is that they are perfect for each other, just the way they should be in a love story with a happy ending. Their weaknesses are balanced out by their strengths, allowing their relationship to bloom and grow. I'm truly sorry that the series has come to and end and shall miss Spencer and Andrew a great deal! Thanks, NR, for allowing Spencer and Andrew to be able to say: ”For you are mine, at last.”

“The stomach carries the heart, and not the heart the stomach.” ~ Miguel de Cervantes, Spanish author (1547-1616)

Wyatt Parker, of 'Wyatt's Recipes for Wooing Rock Stars' by Clancy Nacht and Thursday Euclid, loves to cook, even if it is mostly for himself. Wyatt has never considered entering a cooking competition; he's always thought of it as an enjoyable hobby. But when one comes along with the grand prize of living in rock star Tully Randolph's mansion and becoming his personal chef for a year, Wyatt quickly enters. At the least, he will get to meet Tully and cook for him.

Anyone who has ever watched any kind of reality TV has an idea of the surrealistic atmosphere surrounding such a program. There's a script, whether or not the contestants are aware of it. It's all about the drama and ratings, not about the skill of the people in the contest. Usually the winner has already been chosen before the contest even starts. Wyatt comes into the competition with an open mind and heart, and a knack for working under pressure. Wyatt wants to please Tully with his cooking more than just competing, but with his honesty and talent, he appeals to Tully in other ways as well. Cooking for someone can be a very intimate experience. It invokes past memories of good times and comfort. In Tully's case, Wyatt's dishes remind him of his mother who recently died and was also a chef. Wyatt's food warms not only Tully's stomach but also his heart.

As the competition goes on, the craziness increases, pitting the contestants against each other with each food challenge they are required to make. There are all kinds of conspiracy and backstabbing and the producer is right in the middle of it, trying to derail everyone's efforts except for Pierre, the chef chosen to win. As things go on, Tully regrets ever having promised to do the show, which has turned into a huge mess. He's very attracted to Wyatt, not just because he makes the best food, or because they come from the same sort of backgrounds, or even because he is exactly the kind of man Tully likes. Wyatt is real and honest, someone who makes Tully feel just that much less alone. The feeling is entirely mutual.

Now that Wyatt has actually gotten to know Tully, he realizes that his instincts about the man are correct. Tully is a great guy who Wyatt would love to share time with. He's also realistic enough to know that the only time they may have together is the week of the competition. He doesn't even dream of anything else. Tully and Wyatt find some time to be together and act on their feelings. They think they are being discrete, but apparently they are fooling themselves. The show host, Baker, confronts them coming out of Tully's room and tells Wyatt that because he is involved with Tully, he is in breach of contract and therefore, disqualified. There is nothing Tully can do about it. Heartbroken, Wyatt is escorted out of the mansion and sent home.

There's one thing this story did for me - all the talk about food made my stomach growl. As crazy as the contest was, it was interesting to see what Wyatt did with the limited ingredients he had. It was delightful to see Tully's reaction to Wyatt's creations. Wyatt didn't have a fake bone in his body and Tully was drawn to that like a flame, especially considering that almost everyone around him was usually there for what they could get out of it. Wyatt was so refreshing, no wonder Tully fell in love with him and when they finally get together, their trysts were steaming hot! If you enjoy a story about food, rock stars, food competitions, and the real way to a man's heart besides food, you may like this novel.

“Like fire to ice, I'll melt you with my love. The flame's gonna burn until the walls come down. Like fire to ice, I'll touch you to warn you, the burning won't stop until the walls come tumbling down.” ~ Noel

At first glance, Miles and Zeke, of 'True Colors' by Clare London, seem to be like fire and ice, as different as two men can be, but their hearts are in the same place. Their differences add friction and sparkle; the similarities provide comfort and love.

Zeke is spontaneous and eccentric, even for an artist. He's exceptionally handsome, brilliant, and talented. He's also flamboyant, rebellious, difficult, and, since his brother died, very self-destructive. Under his outrageous facade, Zeke is in excruciating pain. Either by accident or design Zeke has lost everything, including his passion for creating art. The grief he feels from losing his brother is crushing him. He uses sex and alcohol to dull the pain, but it also destroys his creativity. He needs inspiration and purpose. He needs a challenge and Miles is there to present him with more challenges than he can imagine.

In all outward appearances, Miles is perfect. He's handsome, popular, cool, calm, and very rich. Seemingly Miles has everything he could ever want. Yet he's restless and dissatisfied. He's searching for something that has so far eluded him. He's fascinated with Zeke, attracted to his bohemian lifestyle and in awe of his talent. Miles respects Zeke's grieving period, but also gently shoves him back toward his art, because he believes that Zeke's talent is extraordinary and should be expressed and shared. Miles is not willing to stand by and let him throw is gift away. As he and Zeke start their dance of seduction, Miles realizes that it will take a great deal of patience and resolve before he and Zeke learn to dance together successfully.

This is a hot, sexy love story full of angst, and involving an amazing amount of self-discovery. Its myriad subplots led me up, down, and sideways as its mysteries unfolded in unexpected but interesting ways. If you like a passionate read with secondary characters as interesting as the main ones, a story that will keep you on the edge of your seat, not only with its steamy sex, but also with its mystery, intrigue, suspense, and revelations, then you will love 'True Colors'.

“Coming home seemed to have started the healing process. No longer vivid and garish, the memories seemed to be covered in gossamer, fading behind a curtain of time and forgiveness.” ~ Karen Fowler

Ash has had enough of war and goes home to rest and find some peace of mind. He's been away for many years, but he's kept in touch with his family during that time. Ash is surprised at all the changes that have taken place in Quorn, but is comforted by how some things never seem to change. He's ready to settle down; boring seems like it would feel really good after the chaos his life has been in the service. Another change Ash appreciates is the new librarian in town, named Jaxon, who is about the most perfect person Ash has ever met.

Jaxton and Ash are instantly attracted to each other and, since Ash's sister, Evie, has told him so much about her brother, Jaxton thinks he knows Ash already. One of the things that brings them together, besides both being gay, is their love of books. Jaxton's entire den has wall-to-wall built-in book cases and Jaxton tells Ash that he can borrow them any time he wants. Ash lights up like a candle at that offer and spends a long time picking out a whole stack of them. That amuses Jaxton to no end. They admit the attraction, but decide to take it slow. This becomes more difficult than they anticipated and doesn't last very long. When they do get together, the sex is electric, convincing them that they were meant to be together.

Talking about their love for reading leads to a discussion about the lack of access to books in the remote areas around them. It gives Ash an idea. He wants to find a way to remedy that problem and runs it past Jaxton. Ash tells him if he can get a surplus Army vehicle, refurbish the inside, and make a book mobile out of it he could start a business called Book, Line, and Sinker. Jaxton thinks it's a marvelous idea and is instantly on board. They tell Evie who is so enthusiastic about it that she insists going with them to second-hand stores to buy books, toys, DVDs, and other forms of entertainment. Their venture is very successful. All would be well except that Ash is having nightmares and flashbacks that harass him and frighten Jaxton.  Although he is there for support, Jaxton realizes Ash is the only one who can conquer them. Ash promises to get help, realizing his quality of life and relationship with Jaxton is in jeopardy if he can't get these terrors under control.

This is a pleasant story, highlighting the beauty for the countryside and admiration for the folks who live there. It's a snapshot of life in the town of Quorn. Ash is a good guy who has served his country but who is now ready to come home, where, to his surprise, he finds what he was looking for all along. Jaxton is almost perfect in looks, positive attitude, and personality. If you are in the mood to settle back with a “cuppa” for a day of relaxation, this book offers a great escape. Thanks, L.J., for introducing me to Jaxton and Ash along with helping me add a few more Aussie words to my vocabulary.